A Dagger in My Chest


The world and religion seeks peace in this place. They talk great things about how they will rid the world of hatred. What absolute foolishness! While this world is my bedroom I will FIGHT!

Lord, O Great Lord of Life, I ask you to place within my chest a dagger of urgency and boldness. The whole world rages against holiness, even the Holiness of Your Throne. My time is shorter now than when I first began to walk. How I desire to go to war for You. By Your mercy, allow your servant to stand with great boldness. They speak against you when they say they can create peace without You.

 STAND! Take a stand where you find your feet! Look up to the heavens and open your mouth. Rise up and fight, for the time is, indeed, short,

By His Grace.

The War.


All men know war.  From the battle of finding where we left our keys to the carnage of blood on a battle field, all men know war.  But there is a war raging that will not cease until the Lord comes.  You may find your keys.  And there may become a peace treaty.  But all men know war.

Jesus is at the center of this war.  He is the very element of debate, hope, and fear.  Christians debate with non-believers.  Christians hope with a kind of knowing.  And non-believers fear Him and His people.

Enter the war with all you have.  If you hate Him, prove your way as better.  If you love Him, prove the testimony you contain regarding His power within you.  If you fear Him, then go hide in seclusion. 

Today is the day of war!  You cannot escape that reality.  If you doubt my words here, prove them by looking inward.  Can’t you see the struggle regarding Jesus?  I bet two crushed robin eggs you can.

By His Grace.

Why did you come here?


Don’t read this.  I’ve already placed food for you to eat.  But you would have none of it. 

Why did you come here? 

I am like a living corpse.  Men gather to gaze at my blood. 

Why did you come here? 

Were you looking for a righteous man? 

By His Grace.

Hey! Paul, You’re Way Too Harsh!


People think the words posted in this blog are far too harsh.  Many will say that I spoke way beyond my personal righteousness.  The testimony of the life I led was so far short of the words I post here that it’s a sin for me to speak as a man who had led a godly life. 

But let me say this:

This blog does not proclaim that I am righteous.  For over 50 years I lived as a fool, a sinner, an evil man.  I did things (and so many things I can’t count anymore) that even a hardened criminal behind bars would be ashamed of having done.  Even a man on death row would consider many of the things I’ve done as the work of a complete fool.  I do not speak of my righteousness in this blog.  I have no right to speak of “good” standards of living at all.  I speak of the righteousness of God here.

I am telling the entire world that God is Holy, good, perfect, all wise, all patient with fools, and all powerful in His strength.  What this blog does is warn about what is coming.  We can find soft messages about Jesus everywhere.  And if you want to learn how to be forgiven all you have to do is turn to a Christian message anywhere.  But what is not being spoken loudly enough these days is the Holiness of God and His DEMAND that His people also become Holy in all they do for His Name Sake!

I am a fool, a liar, an idiot, a failed father, a failed husband, a fired worker, one who never settled down to live a righteous life.  And I am more wicked than most men in the things I did before.  But I do not live like that anymore.  By His Grace, I now chase hard after what is Holy and Good.  I do not chase these things by my own understanding and power.  I am propelled by the power of God within me.  And He will lead me out to what is good and holy. 

I testify that there is Hell to pay for the guilt of our sins.  I need not testify regarding the Love of God.  You can find that anywhere today.  I testify that if you don’t surrender to the power of God in Christ Jesus, you will die a hedious death of guilt and remorse.  You will be bannished to darkness without the presence of God forever.

You won’t like what I write unless you have come to the Lord Jesus and truly accepted His gift of eternal life.

By His Grace.

Excluded from Eternal Life.


Revelation 22:14, 15

“Blessed are those who wash their robes, that they may have the right to the tree of life and may go through the gates into the city. Outside are the dogs, those who practice magic arts, the sexually immoral, the murderers, the idolaters and everyone who loves and practices falsehood.”

I was talking with a friend this morning about why I’m so different than most everyone else.  I don’t get along with those who chose to chat about idle things.  I don’t revel in the media of movies and secular music.  I rarely even listen to Christian contemporary music any more.  So the question came up regarding my distance from the main stream of people.

Consider what that verse says at the last: ” . . . and everyone who loves and practices falsehood.”  How many lies can you count in one hour of watching TV?  If you listen to the radio, how many songs and commercials can you count which spout lies or find their basis in anything other than The Holy God of all creation?  Drive down the road and look at billboards.  What do you see?  Can you identify the lies they are using to sell you what they have?

If you don’t think you fall into any of the other categories mentioned in that verse, you likely fall quite well into the round hole of loving lies.  Americans fall for nearly anything these days.   I’m not pointing fingers at anyone here.  I’m just making the point that lies have so built America that it now takes the Holy Spirit of God in a Christian to point them out.

I have no control over what anyone else thinks or loves in this world.  But I do warn, as the Lord has, that anyone who lives like this will not inherit eternal life.   Hey!  Hear me!  You will remain in your guilt if you do not obey Jesus.  What do I mean by obey?   After all, isn’t salvation free?  ok.  here . . .

1. Believe in the promise of God to forgive sins through trust in Jesus, His Son.

2. Obey the command of Jesus to become holy,  even as your heavenly Father is Holy. 

3. The forgiveness and power of Christ Jesus sets us free from the servitude of sin.  We need not carry on as do the un-believers any longer.  And He will hold His people to that.  Pray, and Do, the will of God in Christ Jesus.   If you don’t,  you won’t see the other side of  life after the judgment.  You will be cast away to bear your guilt for eternity.

By His Grace.

I Want God’s Will.


What do I want for Christmas?  I want God’s will.  

Let others chase after rotten fruit, I want God’s will. 

Nothing will satisfy this hunger in me but God’s will. 

I seek to pray and something blocks my way.  I want God’s will.

Doors remain locked around me.  I want God’s will.

I strain to hear, yet nothing’s heard.  I want God’s will.

My lips speak His Holy name.  I want God’s will.

How I desire to write success.  I want God’s will.

Father, Great Father of Jesus my Lord, I want Your will.

Open the way before me.  I want Your will.

Let men strive for what they want.  I want Your will.

By Your Grace.