English: Anatomy of the Tony Walsh, in English, by Ties van Brussel / http://www.tiesworks.nl (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

You are God and all Your Holy ways are perfect!  I see You beyond the pages of Your Holy book.  I can point to You for the sake of man.  But the difference between the mind and heart strikes me hard.

“. . . all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”  What is love among men?  I love you!  But “The heart is deceitful above all things  and beyond cure.  Who can understand it?”  What is love among the members of my body?

You asked Your servant Peter, “Do you love me?”  He was cut to the heart to realize that love was not complete within his heart.  How am I any different?

“If You can.” The man said to You.  And Your reply was indignant, as You have a right to be at un-belief.  I do not say to You, “If You can.”  I ask You to DO IT.  If You must cut me in half so that my mind comes near my heart, then DO IT!

What is the love of man for the Beauty that is Jesus, the Son of the Most High God?  The love of man for his God appears in the form of DOING IT.  “And He came to the disciples and found them sleeping, and said to Peter, “So, you men could not keep watch with Me for one hour?” 

My God.  My God!  Tear this lack of love from the very heart of me!  Rend me apart and seek that place of restraint.  I beg You to open the door and let me walk through.  I do not ask You this for the sake of my salvation.  I ask You to do this because You deserve the right to receive praise and adoration from the people You have gained the right to own.

I hate my mind.  I am jealous of its bounty.  It holds what is true and keeps it from my heart.  Or is it, perhaps, this way:  I hate my heart!  For it has little interest in the fire the mind offers.  God in Heaven, have mercy on this fool that I might understand with the heart as well as the mind.

By His Grace.