Walls Too High


The High Wall of Jid Ali

How many times have we reached a “wall too high”?
Then found ourselves, without explanation, “on the other side”.

And how many times, of those unexplainable moments,
Do we remember how high that wall was?

A plain stretches out before us, after a place we can’t remember.
The grass of opportunity now waving in the breeze.

We’re free to reconsider what plainly lies before us.
And we’re headed to the next “wall too high.

By His Grace.

Has the Lord Been Here?


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Every night my tent is pitched at the place my feet arrived.  And I settle down to rest from the noise.  The body seeks that certain death from activity.  And this rest is simply added to the history of many before.  I hope to dream something of interest; not just vague weird shapes.  The night has come.

Every morning I wake to check my camp.  “Has the Lord been here?”  He has come in nights past and left a blessing to that rest.  But none is found this morning.  Yet I take no note of sorrow or disappointment.  For another day has dawned.

The walk is like the masses are camped along a ridge.  And the shape of what lies before us lies vague but daunting beckoning.  “I bid you walk!”  The future thunders with a voice all men hear, “You will walk toward me!”  And we are forced to obey.

I will choose the place my feet will step.  I’m looking for that certain place.  In each day’s journey the Lord has placed a through way.  It might be a bridge, so narrow and spindly that only one may pass at a time.  It might be a hill so high and rugged that it will require every skill I possess.  It might be a dark cave, with only the dim glow of His presence shining from the deep bowels.  It might be a crumbling wall, impenetrable and tall.  Such walls are crumbling with time.  And only those who contain the Spirit of God will see the decay.

Some days are filled with “wait”.  Some are teaming with activity.  Some days are so threatening as to cause us to desire death.  And some days are filled with the blazing heat of God’s presence.  But each day is of its own character.  And the sleep before did not perceive the One who created what we now encounter.

He is God!  He IS!  Forever His will is to be accomplished, regardless man’s willingness to perceive or embrace it.  Look at your way, you people in the land of death.  Look at how your day dawns.  Consider your end and look around you with eyes of understanding.  One more night has escaped your grasp. Though you wished to hold it to your chest, it has evaporated none the less.  Do you really think the day belongs to you?  It will belong to God!  As the night has gone, so will the day.

Eternity is His.  Goodness is His.  Righteous belongs to God alone!  Hatred, ignorance, blindness, doubt, stumbling, and striving are ours.  Yet He is More!  Rise up and look with wisdom at the place you find your soul.  Today is all you have.  And even that is not fully yours.  For our hearts might fail this very day.

 

By His Grace.

The Gentle Breeze of God


Path Through Culbone Wood

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The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.” (John 3:8)

I sit this morning and ponder my bruised mind.  Why do I do these things?  I want to do what is right.  But I am forced along by what I don’t understand.  The Apostle Paul spoke about sin living in him that causes him to do what he does not want to do.  We are caught in a horrible fixture.  We learn to listen to what the Lord speaks, both through His word and in our soul.  But we often find we have wandered off the path a bit.  In a frantic scramble, we trace our way back.  Then, out of breath from the struggle, we sit to ponder why we wandered.

We are not yet perfected in our worship of Jesus.  But as fast as we can, when we find our way gone wrong, we recover and make amends as we are able.  It is the Spirit of God who enlightens the horror of sin in a man.  He alone can show you what needs fixing.  And by the Grace of God, you are bid to take part in this dance of salvation.  “Let’s work hard on this today”.  Though you didn’t realize why you did those things, God will show you.

Listen to Him and live.  Stop your ears and you remain in death.

By His Grace.

Who Me?


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A family is split up because of immigration laws.  Another couple has had marital problems for years, and finally decides to put the skids to the whole thing.  A young man ends up in prison because he murdered someone.  A rich man creates a scheme to defraud millions of dollars from unsuspecting folk.  A woman gets into a car wreck and kills her baby, because she was in a hurry to get to a store sale, the day after Christmas.  A child dies from lack of love.  An old man puts the gun to his head and pulls the trigger for that same lack of love.

As I write those things, I realize I could go on for months describing horrible ends to things full of potential.  What’s the cause?  Why so much suffering and tragedy in this world?  And as I ponder the actual reasoning behind all this, I am forced to do one thing: I turn my hand and  point my finger at me.

That’s the central focus, me.  It’s my fault that hundreds of people have suffered in this life.  I’ve done things, said things, I’ve had an attitude about things that caused me to refrain from doing something.  And on it goes.  While most people will hunt for the pivotal place where life went bad, the answer is going to be an absolute, “It’s me.  I did it.  I’m the scoundrel who caused all this chaos and horror in the lives of the people around me.”

It would be easy to say I was a victim of training by my parents, peers, brothers and sisters, society, marketing, temptation, and the
like.  But in the end, I did my share of damage to the world.  And if you think you’re ok because you didn’t do very many bad things, so you’re off the hook, consider this.

A boy grows up in a dysfunctional home.  By some curious twist of what people refer to as fate, he gets a clue and becomes a doctor.  None of the others in his family really amounted to much.  But this guy is just the icing on the cake.  On his way up the ladder (while still in grade school) he has left a wake of ruined lives.  How?  Because, in the third grade, he decided to join in with 5 other boys to make fun of the weakest among the students.  “Well, the boy deserved it.  He wasn’t well dressed at all.  He stunk of cat dung.  He acted like he didn’t like us.  When he talked he stuttered.  And there’s a whole lot more reasons why we brought trouble to him every day.”

But this trouble infested young lad turned 22.  And for all those years he didn’t forget the treatment in the third grade.  Harder and harder became his heart.  Till one day he took a gun and killed his parents, sisters, a neighbor, and the three dogs in the back yard.  Now he sits in prison
causing all kinds of trouble for everyone else.

You say it’s not the doctor’s fault?  Then who do you blame?  You say the doctor made up for his sins, almost without knowing it.  Because he
became a doctor and now helps gunshot victims.  Nonsense!  He’s a doctor because it’s a way to make money and help a few people.
And in the end, the doctor has a fairly good life.  He’s got a family of his own now.  His kids are growing up in a pretty good house.  His wife is pretty and popular.  They do a lot of good things with their time and money.  And hey!  They even go to church on Sunday.  But in the wake of getting there, look what he helped to cause.

I am just like the doctor.  What did I know of what happened as I floated through this world?  I hated too.  I’ve caused tears.  I’ve spoken countless words of hatred.  I’ve killed animals on the road with my car.  And because of that, I’ve left a child to cry over his dear pet.  I’ve left a track record behind me.  And though I could count a thousand things I’ve done that would be labeled bad, there are 100 thousand things I caused that I’ll never know about.  This is the nature of what we call “SIN”.

Sin is “missing the mark”.  It’s not a bull’s-eye.  It’s a total lack of “right”.   And in the end, if you’re honest, you’re the one at fault!   What’s the traditional thingy to state here?  Don’t we blame Satan for being such a dolt?  Yet, where were you on the night that boy was killed in the street?  You knew him.  And you know you had interactions with him from time to time.  Were you willing to help?  Did you even know he needed help?  Did you ask?  Or were you too busy with your ownlife to notice his needle marks.  Bottom line, did you even feel a twinge of “Hey, I think I should do or say something to help this guy”.  This is a sin of ignorance.  But what was the overall impact of your lack?  He’s dead.  And you’re partially to blame.

That last paragraph was about not doing something you might not have known you even needed to do.  But what about what you did know to do and refused?  You make up excuses, but you’re to blame none the less.

This whole article has to do with blame.  And why would I bother to point any fingers at people?  Because while I was creating this article, I was pondering my own epitaph.  And I wondered what would be true to say about me on a tiny piece of
rock, or in my case, Styrofoam (Or a bar of soap.  Or a piece of toilet paper. Regardless, obviously it will be something “less”.).  In the end, I am forced to admit it would be correct to carve: “HE DID IT!”

In the end we are all totally helpless and equally to blame for all the stuff in this world.  Is there a victim?  Not in the sense that folks think, “Ah, I’m a victim!”.  No matter who you are, you’ve done a few things yourself.  No one is innocent of the blood of another.  No one is innocent of causing horrible harm to others.  There is no one who is innocent!  Not even one of us!

“But I didn’t know I did anything wrong!  I wasn’t aware that he’s in jail now!  And you have no right to blemish my dreams with guilt of such things!”  Oh yea I have, not only, a right.  I have an obligation to speak about these things.  Sin must be pointed out if anyone is going to become saved by Jesus.  If you think you’re squeaky clean, you’re fooling yourself.  Therefore, by definition, we could label you a fool.  The Bible says, “All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.  There is no one righteous, no not one”.  And every one of us will hang (or worse) when we are presented to the Most High God.  Give it some thought.

There are many who would say (regarding the Doctor), “He’s a Doctor now, for God’s sake!  He’s helping thousands in his life time!  You’re
picking at straws to make us look bad.  You’re likely just a frustrated old man who doesn’t have anything to his honor or name.”  Is the man in prison one of his patients?  Does he even know that his actions caused such a terrible outcome?  On the way up, did he ponder that series of actions?  And when he laughed at his wedding, and kissed his beautiful bride, did he remember the plight of those he left in his
wake?   Blame is real.  God doesn’t forget or excuse man.  Those things are there and they will be held against our account.  This is the reason
for Jesus.  You are not blameless!  You are directly to blame.  And you will be held accountable for every idle word you’ve spoken.  Bottom line,
without Jesus, you stand in direct contempt of the court of the Most High God.

While you’re pondering this, look into the saying, “They washed their robes in the blood of the Lamb”. Some who are schooled in words will read this and tear it apart for being incorrect. Kind of like that English teacher we tend to blame for our failings in language.  I look into my heart and consider their possible attacks.  Hmmmmmm I ponder.  “I don’t care”.  I made a point and it wasn’t lost because I don’t know how to write.  And, excuse me, your hand turns toward your own face.  And isn’t blaming and accusing others part and parcel of our lot in sin?  You got the point.  What cha gonna do with it?  Besides, my non-caring attitude toward your “Great and Useless education” helps both you and I.  I don’t blame you, so you’re free from this possible sin.  And you don’t know that such an accusation won’t lead me to prison and the like.  Don’t think so highly of yourself.

And just as an aside, though you might not have guesses.  I don’t have much respect for man’s intellect or vast educations.  All I can see it having done over the ages is cause more trouble than it’s worth.  And it doesn’t address the very fundamental problem, SIN (something that any fool with a pen can speak about.  And who best to describe the pattern the spilled milk makes but the one who did it?).  You say, “Yeah!  But you should at least try to learn how to write”.  And what do you think my response should be?  “Add that to my list
of sins”.

By His Grace.

P. S. No person was injured or defamed by the typing of the letters in this document.  No blood was spilt from the ends of my fingers.  And my eyes were not blinded by the glare of the screen.

A Difference of Destiny.


Take your seat

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The world believes Christians are wrong.  I won’t bother to mention the ways they use to voice this.  And the Christians know that the world is wrong.  I won’t bother to explain why in this post.  But the difference does exist and can not be denied.

But even in Christ, there is a difference in destiny.  I cannot appear before the Throne of God as Jesus can appear.  And I cannot appear there as the Apostle Paul will appear.  And, I suppose, there are many who will not be able to appear even as I might appear before the Throne.  In this, there is a difference in destiny.

What will make the difference between appearing before the Father?  The answer has to be found in obedience to Jesus’ commands.  For how we love Him is made known by how we obey Him.  “. . .  “Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them. 24 Anyone who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me” (John 14: 23 and 24).

Each of us will be given assigned seats before the Almighty God, by virtue of how much we allowed ourselves to love Him in this Place of Testing.  Do not be fooled.  A man reaps what he sows.  And the Light of Eternity will show us our seat.   It will be nothing like the one who shines a dim flashlight in a theater to show us our seat.  It will be the blazing fire of the Holy God who will show us to our seat.  And we will not have to ask anyone to move from it.

By His Grace.

A Test is Waiting for You.


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There is a place where we can rest in testings.  Our loyalty will be tested by the Father and Jesus.  And in this testing we are not judged under the law; forgiveness and acceptance is the order of these proceedings.  But there is another testing which has neither forgiveness nor acceptance.  When we are tested by man, we are thrown to the wolves.  The testing of man is a sliding scale of hatred.  We will find ourselves tested if we let it slip that we consider Jesus first in our appreciation of life.  Then we are tested again as we testify to this appreciation.  But a sliding scale is not proportionate to a steady growth.  It’s more like we enter into differing shades of man’s hatred.  It’s not a 1, 2, 3 thing.  It’s more like :

1. we don’t like what you’re believing.  But as long as you don’t voice your belief, we can tolerate you.

2. You’ve voiced your belief in our hearing and we will now push you aside from our “fun”.

3. You’ve continued to, not only voice your belief, but act on your belief in our presence.  We will now try to destroy you because of the testimony you exhibit.

4.  You’ve continued to stand against our social order.  And nothing we have done has caused you to hesitate in the slightest.  It’s apparent you intend to continue down this path of “difference”.  So, as soon as we can find legal means, we will work toward your death.

This “test” of man will be allowed to continue until the Lord returns to establish Peace on this world under His direct control.  This “testing” is allowed because it tests and refines the heart of those who call on the Lord for true life.  Don’t be surprised at the things which encase you now.  But allow yourself to be surprised if you don’t see this progression of hatred coming upon you.  It is an indication that you are not yet where you should be in Christ.  For the Lord has promised that if they hated Him, they will hate you.  And if they desired to kill Him, they will desire to kill His people also.

By His Grace.