There are times when we simply can’t see the value of our service to the Lord. The sadness this short sightedness provokes should never be compared to any sadness common to every man. It is a sadness the Lord felt as He walked this Place of Testing. And perhaps, longing, is a better description. But the longing for one who is deeply loved. This longing has provoked the following prayer. May God bless His words inspired by His Beauty.
Lord Jesus, I want to come home. I know there is work to be done. Work for Your Glory needs to be accomplished. You need to work in me. And I need to work in the world for the sake of Your Holy Name and the souls of the blind. But I want to come home.
I used to belong here, basking in the darkness. I used to hate you and my only desire was to be left to my own pleasures. But You’ve entered and changed all that. Oh, how happy You make Your people! How beautiful are the words of what the world calls “doom and gloom”. You have not given man words to speak of the joys You instill in Your people. But I want to come home.
I am at a loss as to what to say or do for any one of these who don’t know You. I speak Your beautiful words. But they can’t hear. I show them the hatred for sin You have birthed in my soul. And they think I am simply an angry man. Your ways are to be desired above everything in this world, and they ARE. You have touched my heart with an unspeakable peace and joy. How deep is the yearning for Your Holy ways! I have lips, but words fail me. I want to come home.
But I will stay and love you as from afar. The sparkle of this world is dimmed to darkness. The desire to gain what they gain is lost. And there is no regret at this loss. You have caused this foolish man to desire what is best. And all I own is to Your Glory. I am nothing without You! And this nothingness causes a vast craving for Your Love. It is our lot to serve you in this Place of Testing. And I gladly accept this rule from Your Beautiful hand. But I want to come home.
by His Grace.